I passed one of our old places today. It was such a small thing that I felt ridiculous for noticing it. I almost ignored it, then kept circling back to it anyway. I don’t want to go backward. I just had one nostalgic minute. Anyway, I hope you’re okay. I didn’t think that would still get to me.

I laughed when I saw your update. This is probably random. I found an old phone cable right before that, which probably didn’t help. I was at the burger spot when it crossed my mind, and the timing felt weirdly specific. I’m taking this as retroactive proof that I was right at least once. That’s really all.

I miss having you to send dumb stuff to. You were the person I could send random thoughts to without explaining why any of them mattered. There are still jokes I don’t send anyone because they were basically written for you. I’m not asking to force anything. I just wanted to admit that part still hurts.

Your stuff is still here. This is probably random. The thought lasted maybe a minute, but it stuck with me longer than I expected. It hit me around midnight, which somehow made the whole thought feel more random. I’m not using it as an excuse to see you. I just want to return it and close that little loose end. Anyway, I hope you’re okay.

I dreamed about you last night. I didn’t expect to say that today. I didn’t expect my reaction to be that immediate. It hit me while I was out, which somehow made the whole thought feel more random. Apparently my brain misses the ordinary parts more than the dramatic ones. That’s really all. It was weirdly familiar for a second.

Honestly, I have one question I never really got answered. It hit me around midnight, which somehow made the whole thought feel more random. I saw pho and immediately connected it to one of our stupid old routines. I’m not asking to argue. I’d rather hear something painful once than keep guessing. It was such a small thing, but it stuck.

I disappeared, and that was unfair to you. This is probably random. I didn’t expect my reaction to be that immediate. I had been thinking about something completely unrelated, then suddenly there you were in my head. I’m not asking you to let me back into your life. I just wanted to say I’m sorry.

I need a small favor from you. I didn’t expect to say that today. I almost ignored it, then kept circling back to it anyway. It hit me this morning, which somehow made the whole thought feel more random. If you’d rather not help, just say so. I won’t make it weird. I’m trying not to overthink it.

There’s one thing I still wonder about. I didn’t expect to say that today. I found an old keychain right before that, which probably didn’t help. I didn’t expect my reaction to be that immediate. You can be honest. I’d rather know than keep filling in the blanks. That’s really all. It was such a small thing, but it stuck.

I want you to come over, which is probably a terrible idea. It hit me around midnight, which somehow made the whole thought feel more random. I saw tacos and immediately connected it to one of our stupid old routines. If this sounds emotionally dangerous, ignore me. I’m aware it probably is. That’s really all.